New Found Glory

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So it’s official! Apparently, I’m taking this blogging thing seriously.

I shall not be talking about that famous band but something else. Something so much more different but equally glorious! 🙂

What began as a “What-did-i-do-today-logbook” for my intern duties at a firm I used to work for last summer and an emotional hideout has turned out to be one of my greatest anchors to sanity. Although, I’ve only been really consistent for just a short period but I’m happy to say that I have planted some roots that has got me digging into this thing we all call blogging.

I’ve heard people doing this for a living and I’ve witnessed how it changed their lives in so many ways. So, I’ve seen it as something as both a leisure and  a really serious thing and always thought that they come in separates. Didn’t really realize it until some time.

Exclusive, hard, poetic, experienced (something someone awkward like me wouldn’t drift)- were one of the few words I can totally associate with blogging that even an attempt to make blogs such as this one is a scary move. Always have I thought that blogging is a department I can never get into especially with the writing thing & the whole featured stuff people post about.

But then again, one never really knows if one never really tries, right? I garnered all my strength into pulling off something like this – a place where I can just be me & let the virtual world know that “me” is pretty awesome and that maybe, just maybe, I can help in any way just like how my bookmarked-blogs have helped me.

Constructing the blog was easy, but the commitment was the real challenge for me. There are those moments where I almost (keyword:almost) regret making this in the first place. No one really cares. But then there’s that moment where everything just changed when a little star turned bright orange right in the corner telling you someone REAL ( a breathing living thing) actually reading & liking my post – and then voila, I become the blabber, noisy & very talkative girl that I already am. Just translated into writing. Somehow, I just wanted to be better, not only for me but for all those who find time & read these very words I’m writing.

*INSERT — Heavenly lights, Angels singing, & Orchestra music*

A blessing, as one would have it, Cebu Blogger’s Camp came into picture. A real opportunity to meet real bloggers and understand the whole blogging community. It took me 2 camps & really happy camper-friends to realize how this kind of thing can be so much fun and I’m sure I’m not letting this one slip away without me being a part of it myself. Since I’ve never been to such before, I’m really terrified, scared but really excited to learn so much more. But what do I expect out of this experience? Let’s see..

A pair of lenses. I have eye defects but these lenses are not for my eyes. Since this is a conference of so many bloggers from all walks of life, I’m expecting & looking forward to gaining new perspectives.Seeing & experiencing far more than my own eyes so that I can put more substance and gravity to every posts I make, though I still want them to be as crazy like me. 

Unconventional. I am inspired of anything that is really creative & crazy; random & weird because they make me happy. The thought of how different it is (and beautiful) whether or not its a thing, a picture, a song or just a thought – makes me realize that there is more to this than what has already been taught in school, at home & all those stuff. Searching for everything that’s unconventional then, will be a life-long endeavor I am willing to partake.

Adventure. Since this is a camp, I expect it to be as adventurous as possible. Since it’s a term that almost encompasses everything, I expect to be high on so many stories, experiences, challenges, lessons and thrill during the event. That’s a lot to squeeze for a one-day thing but I am determined to make it a worthwhile experience since I am determined to live everyday of my life as an adventure always worth telling the world through my blog.

PURE AWESOMENESS. I know I’ll never regret ditching a gig for this because I know I’ll be met with pure awesomeness. Just the thought of my friends being there, I expect it to be an atmosphere where everyone’s learning from each other & that we come into a life-long mission of always infecting other people with inspiration so that they may also share whatever wonder there is to share in the virtual reality and beyond. 

BOOM! Timex. Haha (Just kidding, its a term I learned from FlipTops)

So, that’s it. Pretty interesting this camp is. Excited and cannot wait for Friday. 🙂 Thanks for just a wonderful opportunity to Cebu Blog Camp for yet another awesome adventure & to the sponsors (below) who have been so supportive to all this.

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xxx

Clang2

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TREK

It’s never easy meeting ends when you’re bored and do not have the means to not be bored. Like one Sunday when I finished early with chores and was left alone at home. I only had a few bucks that could sustain a few buys, if ever. What did I do then?

I just called one of my thriftiest friends who can join me anytime as much as possible in having fun without even spending so much! Well, that’s what we usually do so we’ve had years of practice.

Nonetheless, there are still things that one should prepare. Yourself, of course. So, I washed my face, changed going out clothes and kept a little money in my secret pocket. Just that and I was good to go. Since transpo is hard to get by in my place, I just hitched with my cousin’s bike, which gave me so much adrenaline-rush cos he was such a fast driver and a PLUS was I wasn’t able to spend so much on transpo already 🙂

A good place to go to is something you’re not so familiar with–like this one. J-Centre Mall found in Banilad, Cebu City! Finally found a mini-Eiffel tower. Had been looking for it for months now. So we did some strolling and a little buying. Obviously, we had an obsession of taking pictures near art pieces.

Scroll down and you’ll see what we did. You can do so much more even without that much money. See? Happiness, my dear, is free after all. haha well not totally, but getting there is so much more affordable than you think. 😉 What you need is a good company and a right attitude to enjoy even the simplest things you encounter! Open your heart and mind to all the possibilities that’s out there & enjoy!

xxx

Clang2

Mongol no. 2

I should be nervous but I’m not. I should be jumping up & down but I’m not. I should be preparing but I’m not. Instead, I’m blogging my feelings away (again) as I’m exactly 7 hours before taking THE exam I’ve been dreading to arrive. But it has, finally – in a few hours. Whatever’s coming out of that exam will decide my fate, whatever my answer is surely locks it with finality.

Thoughts of how I haven’t been really preparing about the whole thing is scary but to be honest, I’m not. Which brings me to ask myself whether or not its what I want in the first -place. So is this the one they call pre-(change wedding to exam) jitters? Having second thoughts, butterflies in my stomach & doubting?? But really, I’m not feelinf any extreme emotion as of RIGHT NOW. But I’m sure I will be tomorrow.

Instead, I’m listening to my favorite song, planning what to wear and practicing my penmanship! 🙂 Whatever is wrong with me? Is this even right? Oh well, I am sure that whatever comes out will be okay – good or bad. No heightened expectations so that there will be no humongous disappointments in the near future.

Of course, I assure you that I will absolutely TRY. Keyword: TRY. XD And God knows how hard I try. But most of all, I’ll enjoy the moment because it’s meant to be enjoyed. So many people are dying to be in my place right now to be able to take the exam that could change lives and futures  but didn’t even have the chance to try. This is for them, this is for my Papa, this is for my Mama, this is for those who believe.. fingers crossed loves. :*

Now on to my Mongol # 2.. where is it anyways?

laters baby.

Clang2

Yesterday was Monday

Class was early as usual. Had more or less 4 hours of time to waste after. Went to Starbucks cos it was the only open cafe in SM before it opens @ 10. Doodle-d some stuff and had lunch with my girls. Here are some of the tidbits that happened along the way. haha Enjoy!

xxx

Clang2

The Chase

When you want something so bad, you would do anything- Beat the odds, go through whatever to have it, reach it, or experience it. *Play MUSIC*

I have been having a crazy fascination over Ferris wheels and any of that kind lately. My past experience of the ride have been so happy that I desperately wanted to try again and again..and again. Just thinking about it already makes me so thrilled, excited and happy.

In the hopes of experiencing this again I devoted a part of my free time looking for carnivals or peryas as a portion of every hangouts I have with my High-school friends. So imagine the places where I’ve been searching for my Ferris wheel.

If you’re asking, why not St. James? We did go already but always on the wrong time. The time we went there, it was closed and without any other amusement options, we decided on some things that lead to a happy horrific memory. The trekking days with my friends go unwasted because ideas of my amusement ride linger at the back of my head. It took me a lot of weekends (sembreak weekends), with no luck I was not able to find what I was looking for. There were disappointments, obviously. Trust me, I told myself to stop already but there are reasons which I myself could not understand on why I’m being so stubborn that I’m already contradicting myself. I just wanted to STOP but I could not bring myself to.

But then again, when you want something so much, you go through whatever to have it even if there are occasional heartbreaks along the way.

Up until this weekend I was seeking desperately for my amusement ride. As luck would have it – the annual fiesta is nearing which guaranteed that there had to be rides somewhere in the city.

Saturday came and I got really excited. I finally convinced my friends (who were not-so-willing boys) to help me look for the rides in the market place where I expected it to be. I imagined it all perfectly – the adrenaline rush, the thrill, the ride and just the whole festive feeling. But after hours of strolling, we got hungry & never found what we were searching. I did not get my ride and had a few extras on the heartache department along the way, direct or indirectly related of the search – it doesn’t even matter.

Sunday came fast and I was a little down. Out of sheer boredom, I decided to go to Gai-Mac (Gaisano Island Mall of Mactan) with me friend BOOGERS to see the one that completes us 3, BONKIE. We chatted a little, ate ice cream, laughed over lame-ass jokes, and did our “obligatory” trigrups hug. Bonkie left because she was chaperoning her sister while Boogers and I had different plans. And when we say plans, it is yet to be planned.

Just when you thought all hope is dead and gone — you have that PROFOUND, SURREAL moment where everything around goes slow-mo, your friend becomes a blur and the sounds slowly deafening its way to silence and the only thing you see is the sight of the FERRIS WHEEL from afar turning and turning with its colorful lights on. Of course, It had to be here – where it had been every year. Good thinking Clarissa. Ha ha ha and I hope you feel the sarcasm.

So we were literally jumping our way to the park’s entrance and got really excited. We squealed, we rushed, we jumped up and down, we shouted, we ran and then —

NOTHING.

Finally, the thing I’ve been wanting and searching for a very long time slowly materializing in front of me. All those efforts, heartaches..I felt completely nothing. I didn’t even want to ride the old metal thing twirling its way to amuse the visitors.

Funny. Funny how I thought I’d be so devastated not finding it. I’ve spent so much effort trying to look for it but the excitement just went away with the wind when I saw it.

Maybe I’ve wanted it too much that all the excitement consumed me there’s nothing left to exhaust anymore.

Maybe I’ve accustomed myself of being happy even just at the thought of it. Now that its in front of me, I only see the screws, its parts going rusty, the badly decorated banderitas and for the lack of better word, sad (?) audience there is.

I’ve wanted it too much I don’t want it anymore. I was so busy searching I forgot why I was doing it in the first place. The searching thrilled me. But that was it,

I loved the whole chase. The idea that what I wanted can still be a possibility I might enjoy when I find the ride. But when reality slowly dawned on me in a 20-peso-ticket ride @ your own risk amusement they’re offering, everything felt different. Everything felt alien. Everything started to make sense.

So we went out as fast as we could but made a mini-stop down by the karaoke machine and sang Hands Down for the road. We went out after the praiseworthy performance, no regrets but with many realizations.

And I know you know, It’s not just the FERRIS WHEEL I’m talking about.

Xxx

Clang2