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Finally, I’m done with my chores, done with the New Year’s Eve preparation… Soon thereafter, I’ll be done with this year too because in less than 5 hours we are welcoming 2013 with a BANG! *fireworks*

This year has definitely been amazing. Indeed God never failed surprising me with adventures every day; which was THE one thing I asked from him from the past year. It was like my favorite festival ride – the roller coaster – takes you unexpectedly to a surmounting high and down to a low. Sometimes you enjoy the ride, sometimes you want to puke because you’re caught off guard but at the end of the day, you keep coming back for more…that’s because you’ve enjoyed the ride. But of course, the ticket only guarantees just one ride. You can buy again, but it’ll never be the same again. So whatever I’ve had throughout the ride, I’m very glad to say that it was all awesome in ways more than one…

To get my drift, here are some of what we all call Big Moments that became highlights of a great year that I had. Help me look back and remember these moments for us to be able move forward.

Loss of a loved one – one of the most unforgettable things that happened to me and to my family is the loss of my mother. There are no words that express how much I miss her but I’m happy that she is at peace wherever she is. Everything I am today, I owe my mom & dad. Months after I lost my baby; my one and only big furry creature Max.

 

Friends for keeps – With such great loss, I gained so many. One of my anchors to sanity and happiness were my friends, true friends. They’ve been with me at all my important moments. They’ve seen me go mad but they stayed. And I’m happy to say that they’re the ones you can always keep forever.

Royal treatment – Every girl wants to be treated like a princess and thankfully I’ve had my fair share of that! I was called a GIRL, had an awesome ARM CANDY, had a gorgeous dress and I was at PROM. I was really excited because we didn’t have those in High School.

Wandering wanderer – This year has all been all about exploring for me and a good way to do that is to travel. I’ve been discovering places a lot from simple bistros to enchanted paradise-looking beaches. Although I only had limited options but I was armed with awesome friends always ready to get by with just about anything.

Of responsibility & accountability – With all the changes in my life, I’ve been trying real hard to become more or less responsible. HAHAHAHA! Since I’m the only girl left at home, my Dad expects me to act like a housewife which kind of makes me mad. It’s hard but I hope the people that matter to me know that I’m trying. I am now a registered voter, thank God! Also, I’ve worked as an intern to an NGO called PEJC which was also the reason which got me into this blogging thing. And now, as we speak, I am cooking my license for I am now DRIVING! Yeaaah!

Awaiting unemployment – Now that I’m in my 4th year, my college undergrad education is nearing to an end which means, unemployment is waiting at bay. But the moments in between always make me smile. The people I’ve met in college and the things we did have been totally amazing.

Surpassing limits – Along with school responsibilities and other challenges that have come along the way, I always aimed to push a little more just to try! And yes, maybe I’m such a masochist, I’ve been doing things that might occasionally break me –but heck, you’ll never know if you’ll never try. Though I’m really scared, I ran for a position again for school and did things I thought I couldn’t do.

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Crazy adventures – With crazy antics we’ve done, comes collateral damage after. I have been extra adventurous this year that consequences that have come after have not been easy to deal with. But it was all worth it because I’ve had so much fun and have had so much to learn too. VISIT HERE..

HAPPY HOME – After all that we’ve been through, I BELIEVE we’re still COOL! Hahaha Props to the greatest gift God has given me in my entire life – my family and those that I’ve considered as one already. I could not imagine life without these weird happy people I live with every day.

This blog post is my favorite so far, because it has everything in it. Collecting these pictures made me realize how amazing life is. From photograph to another, a memory lingers – from experiences to lessons learned.

Now that the ride’s almost over… the cab is slowing and halting to a stop. Looking back to 365 days before this one, I met the year with tears because things didn’t go as planned, things didn’t go our way. But now I’m ultimately positive that I’ll be welcoming 2013 with tears of happiness! 2012 was amazing. Moments from now, what I’ve experienced, where I’ve gone to the ride that has been – it will all be memories always stored at the back of my mind.

On to the next ride…On to a better year.

Happy New Year Friends! I wish you all the best of what life has to offer. Always remember wherever you are in the world- give thanks and give love. 

with love,

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Tis’ the season…

Finally, the waiting is over. The countdown is done; the rush of buying gifts to and fro is all over because my dear friend; Christmas is finally here. Ho Ho Ho! Merry Christmas… But is it really Merry for all?

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Right about this time last year I was spending Christmas with the whole family at a hospital – it was gloomy. I tried hard to dress fancy but I did not win against the cold and hard white walls and floors of a medical institution. But nonetheless, I was happy because we were complete and that’s something worth the celebration.

Today, on the other hand, has been quite different. At home with heaps of food I’m figuring how to finish, the family’s incomplete – my sister was with her own family and had to go somewhere for a gathering, my Dad’s not home yet – which leaves me and my dear brother prepping the house. Not that he was a big help at all considering that he was playing FIFA 2k13 with ze soccer kids all day long.

Gladly I had THE Help, our yayas. They were so attentive with what to cook, what’s lacking, with that to keep and so on and so forth. When I had the time to take a break and just observe them – they were smiling but their eyes were saying otherwise. They were eyes of longing – very distant and lonely. And then a surge of guilt, pain and pity hit me. Ate Marcy and Ate Anne, although very cheery and attentive, were missing their families in a cold Christmas eve.

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The realization dawned on me. I was sad earlier but then it was all gone when I realized how lucky I was celebrating Christmas in my own home no matter what. And our yayas just had to stay because they’re trying to provide for the family. I can imagine how hard it is for them; when they could’ve been preparing their own food and taking care of their own children in their own homes far far away. But instead, they were with us. Not that we’re such a handful. But any child would have wanted their Mama right at their very arms on Christmas; at least that’s how I would’ve wanted my Christmas to be.

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So I give my love and appreciation to the HELP who have constantly taken care of our family and have gone beyond their selves despite the loneliness to celebrate Christmas with us! Food and wine will always make celebrations like these easy, but our Help made it bearable.  To ze soccer boys who have kept us company the whole day and made sure that no amount of good laugh was wasted away. To my dear darling nephew who has been acting like Santa giving gifts to everyone; to great friends never made me feel alone even when they’re miles away – Merry Christmas! Indeed, there are a lot of reasons not to be merry but trust me when I say there are a million of reasons why we have to. When the clock stroked 12, everyone I care for in the world was there and I was happy.

Merry Christmas world and hope you find the happiness I’ve found wherever you are in the world. Careful on the dessert, you don’t want to add too much pounds like I did. ;D

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Last Friday night

If you may recall perfectly, last Friday night was supposedly the end of the world. Until it got postponed.

Nonetheless, thinking that it’s gonna end in any way we can imagine, my friends and I threw an end-of-the-world party. It was the most prepared party I had for my closest friends since time immemorial but only a few cam due to some reasons which we will still scrutinize. I mixed the drinks for the first time. At least I had a first in my supposedly last day on Earth, right? 🙂 We had barbecue, pizza and mallows. After the bountiful food we had, we went to the rooftop, a little dizzy, and decided to watch 2012 to laugh at it. But we were kinda bored so we watched The Dictator instead. Damn, that movie was funny, my stomach was aching from an hour of laughing. It was reaaally racist and if you were so serious, I can’t imagine what you’ll do from anger!

After the movie, we had to exchange our exact 43.50-peso gifts. It’s impressive how one of our friends got a gift that really had that amount when all the others are struggling looking for one. Others just added coins to make it sum up to 43.50 pesos. And because I only prepared the gift an hour before the party, I just crafted my own gift certificate that entitled the receiver a free hug and tap in the back.Really creative and fun! You should do that too, saves you time and money but fun nonetheless.

Finally, we had another round of an unfinished bottle of Jose Cuervo; we didn’t finish it too. It was tequila-> favorite! 😀 and being our usual kiddy, weird selves we played with the bubbles and remembered that we had to take a picture of us that day because it only happens once until we were told that the end of the world was postponed . So I guess there’ll be another end of the world then. Looking forward for another awesome party.

Here’s what I got from my cam…



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Le Beard

Okay. I don’t know why I’m writing this but all my life I have overlooked a person who means so much to me and has been an integral part of who I am today. And that is my one and only, my main man Papa.

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There was never a day in my growing life that I was not pissed or annoyed at him. He cracks super corny jokes; he can be really insensitive, he can be pretty frank, overly protective and very strict. That’s my Dad alright. He has this signature beard that’s going to make you think he’s part of the Mafia. There is this silent manner about him that makes him appear even more strict and grumpy. He forgets your name and uses shouting as his normal conversation voice. But he has these warm, chinky smiling eyes that wrinkles when he laughs along with his dimples that make him look younger than his years. He has this weird laugh that’s so infectious you don’t want to make him stop. And he has this ability to always sweep me off my feet and make me smile every time, in any way he can.

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What did my Papa ever do today that made me write this? Well he just acted like his usual self like what he always does the last 20 years of my life; Simply amazing. Here’s a list why my Papa is the most awesome guy in my life.

  • He spoils me. From chocolates to just about anything my Papa is the number one spoiler in the world. That’s because he’s afraid of crying kids so the second a kid shows hints of crying he splurges with chocolates or just about anything under the sun. Does the trick every time.
  • He makes me laugh. Well he doesn’t have the best jokes in the world trust me. Sometimes it makes you think so much it’s not funny anymore and sometimes it’s too corny that the attempt of making the joke is funnier. I just have to let out a small HA HA. Hahahahahaha!!!
  • He knows how to treat a girl right. Trust me when I say he’s the best flirt and he’s so generous too. A gift giver armed with witty compliments and he’s full of surprises. Who’s saying no to that? Damn. I’m like selling my father here. But really, he is so smooth like Santana; even resembles him a little. 😀
  • He has weird, eccentric taste. Like me, my father is fascinated to things that are unconventional. Brings me to new places every time and brings home any unique finds he can see on the way home.
  • Knows how to have a good time. Being the father, he sees to it that we are well provided for and taken care of by working hard. But you will be surprised that he even plays harder. From gardening, going to the beach to his favorite bingo game; he manages oh so perfectly work and fun like a boss.

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  • My moral compass. Like any parent does, he guides me and answers all my unasked questions. He just knows what to say when I’m not even saying things at all. He’s like the Supreme Court Chief of Justice where he tows everyone in line with his iron will and righteousness.
  • His BIG HEART. He can be such an arse with all the crap he lets me do and all the things he says that sting a little. But I don’t get mad. I just don’t have the will to do so because he is such a good person. He has a big heart that melts to just about anyone that knocks upon our door. And when he just gives out all of him to the people, that’s when I smile and tell myself – That’s my Papa right there.

So that’s it. It’s a long list really but these qualities really stand out for me and are the things I always see in him every day. Happy to have this man in my life and now, my mission is of course; to be the best brat in the world. KIDDING! Okay, I kid world! 😀 Okay, maybe I’ll just have to let him feel that he has succeeded in being the good father that he already is. Haha

Here’s to you Pa!

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Post-Apocalyptic Coffee

There is always a thing or two that we can learn from prophecies, foretold stories that might not even be real or possible. Apparently, if we follow the Mayan Calendar as they would have it, we are now in our post-apocalyptic dimension. Believe it or not, my dear friend, we have survived the apocalypse! We have gone pass 12-21-12. That easy folks. *fireworks*

So I’m here now, sipping my coffee, sitting on a high chair trying to connect dots and thoughts into this text box. As fate would have it, I could not have been sitting here. I could not have been talking to you right now. I could have been dust already, a particle unseen drifting away into  the nothingness. I could have died, could have disappeared if the world ended yesterday.But it didn’t because it was POSTPONED. oops.. Spare me then my friend for I’m about to share some of my Post-Apocalyptic thoughts over coffee.

We have to remember that it’s not the end; its just the beginning. Now that we have had that moment – it makes us narrow down all the things that matter. Things that are important and should be given more consideration above all others. Yesterday also gave me a new perspective in life by taking things by stride. One should already be panicking when the world’s end is nearing but I felt totally different yesterday, maybe because I didn’t believe it in the first place and i have had way too much to drink, but also it’s because I think that one way or another we are leading towards that end. Yesterday was no different from the days that have gone and are about to arrive because everyday we are always met with death. We never know actually.

So, I’ve had the perspective to take things lightly and just ride. Be fashionably graceful when the world ends. Shocks. What am i telling you guys? Another thing that’s important is to always seize the day. Knowing that at some point everything’s just gonna end is a guarantee that one should live life according to what makes us happy. At the end of the day, it’s what matters. When you have loved, given and have made yourself and others happy.

Finally, we should never ever forget to give thanks for what has come and will still arrive. Just exactly this time of the day last year was the beginning of an end – the day my Mom was admitted to the hospital and never got out the way I wanted her to be. I’d like to give thanks to everyone and to Him for giving me strength everyday to last a year and even survive the apocalypse despite the hole that penetrates my heart every time. Let’s not forget that yesterday was not the end but only a beginning to something beautiful. 

So that’s it for now! Coffee’s done and I have to go date my Papa, brother and our soccer boys today. Yep, I am a busy girl. Enjoy your post-apocalyptic survival 😀

Ciao! Happy Holidays love :*

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